There are days I can sit down and double that in less than half an hour, awesome. Then there are days that I sit for two hours and struggle to get a sentence down that I don’t hate. And then there are days where life just gets in the way and I don’t get to write at all.
It seems reasonable enough, carve out an hour of time just to write, but in practice it can be a real struggle. Like now, the dog wants to go for a walk, the cat is yowling to be fed and the dishwasher needs to be unloaded. So do I tend to all the household chores or do I write a bit.
So lately I’ve been trying to delineate what actually needs to be done right now from what can wait a bit. For example, I know the dog does not have to pee, he just wants to chase the chipmunk, so he can wait for a while. The cat, however, must be appeased or I won’t be able to get anything written because the constant yowling makes me a little bit twitchy.
Almost all good writing begins with terrible first efforts. You need to start somewhere
So those are what I like to think of as the physical obstructions to writing more. Then there are the mental obstructions, which can be even harder to deal with. Being programmed from an early age to be a perfectionist has been a problem for me in two ways as I sit to write. First, all the chores must be done before I can sit to write. Of course there are always more chores once can think of and that just leads to never writing, so I’m learning to just let things like for a while while I sit to write.
The other issue with being a perfectionist is needing to knowing perfectly what should be written. I’ll have an idea in my head, and in my head the language just flows and seems perfect, but then when I type it out it is clunky and stilted, just laying there on the page. I’m not sure what happens between my brain and my fingers on the keyboard, but it really pisses me off. I can spend all afternoon trying to recapture that great thought I had, but it floats away like smoke.
What I’m trying to focus on now is to just get words down, more and more words. It does seem to work. It seems that the more I write, the more the writing flows. My current theory is that even if 80% of it is craptastic at the moment, that’s still 20% good stuff and I can build on that.